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I never knew someone could be this happy.
I'm the luckiest dude ever.
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[19 Jul 2009|05:48pm] |
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"Assign me to a nice girl,
So I can sing her something meaningful"
I have a whole gang of shit going on. I like it. My brain is moving and growing. I feel like I'm on my feet and headed in a good direction.
I went looking for new shoes the other day and didn't find anything I liked. Fuck.
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[24 Jun 2009|12:47pm] |
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Not too much longer until I'm back to where I started.
I'm done with this town, and I'm looking forward to heading south aways.
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[26 May 2009|12:02am] |
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"Thought of you as my mountain top
Thought of you as my peak
Thought of you as everything I've had, but couldn't keep.
I've had, but couldn't keep.
Linger on..."
Dreames, nightmares, whatever. I'm totally fucked.
I made a new friend. His name is Jameson. He's a nice dude, but he gives me a headache every so often.
Peace.
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[21 Apr 2009|11:04pm] |
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One week, this. The next week, that. Fuck.
I'm feeling pretty optimistic today, and the last few days. Playing shows again has been very good for me. We're recording friday and I'm looking forward to it very much. I'm thinking about looking for a second job to bring in some extra cash.
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[14 Apr 2009|10:17am] |
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I don't know what the fuck I'm doing here still. I'm thinking about moving closer to my folks. I need my family, and I'm running out of reasons to stay here.
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[13 Apr 2009|04:27pm] |
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I don't know where to go.
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[09 Apr 2009|02:57pm] |
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I decided to go vegan again.
I'm only a few days in, but it's working out much more wonderfully than it did last time.
I already feel ten times better physically, and mentally than I have the last few months.
It's nice to clear out all the garbage in my life.
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[08 Apr 2009|01:31am] |
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I can't write a fucking word this evening. It's ok though. The block will split soon. I like to think I've been productive enough recently, and I've got a decent amount of material to work with for the near future, so that will keep me occupied. We might be recording next week, which will be nice. Old songs will finally get recorded the way they're supposed to be, and new songs will be recorded for the first time. Good shit.
I had a really good day off today. I made myself a to-do list, and got everything done that was on it.
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[06 Apr 2009|10:46am] |
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I don't really know what to do with myself.
New freakouts are popping up, and I'm not sure what to do about them.
I'm feeling good though. Mostly.
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[22 Mar 2009|11:53pm] |
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I'm certainly not %100.
Some nights it just kinda hits me real hard. I don't want to move or watch tv or go anywhere or anything. I think it's a little too early to expect to be completely ok, but I just want to be over everything. I'm trying real hard, but sometimes it's just like "what the fuck, dude?". I've got crutches and I fucking hate myself for it sometimes. But right now I don't have a shoulder or a body or anything. Just my own head. Maybe it's too much Joy Division.
Sleeping alone has been tough.
I really wish you were the same girl you used to be.
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[17 Mar 2009|07:38pm] |
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First off, I'd like to say that I have absolutely no problem with "recreational" use of weed. It's fine, totally. However, I do believe that weak minded indivuduals should NOT smoke pot on a daily basis. It's sad if something as little as pot can completely change an individual's personality and day-to-day life. Real drugs are a given when it comes to taking over, but weed? Come on. Grow the fuck up, and find yourself an identity of your own. Indulgence is one thing (and once again, something I haven't the slightest problem with) but reliance is a fucking joke.
Quick ramble, sorry.
Annnnyyywaayyyy. I have been absolutely in love with playing guitar again lately. I've been writing quite a bit, and I'm really looking forward to getting back on track with music. Now that I have nothing holding me back I don't see any reason as to why I shouldn't dive right into this shit, full speed ahead. I got off track there for a while, and pretty much gave up on the "dream" or whatever, but I'm over that.
I'm 100 percent committing myself to writing awesome jams for the rest of my life. As a career choice, or not.
Peace.
p.s. It's nice to be back on this thing again, even if nobody reads it.
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[09 Mar 2009|12:21am] |
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My black balloon isn't so black.
It's more like a light grey that's slowly but surely changing colors. It's gonna get all bright and then dark, and go through a thousand different shades of a bunch of shit, then (hopefully) it'll turn orange and float peacefully through the rest of my life. I'm going to be the same exact dude I've always wanted to be (except, maybe a bit more able to cope with valleys and rocks and cracks).
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[06 Mar 2009|07:23pm] |
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That obnoxious little punk kid in me refuses to die.
Which is fine, because being young, angsty, and stubborn really keeps me afloat when everything and everyone else decides to pick their roots up out of the ground, turn around and walk away.
All I need is good jams, good friends, and good times.
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It's funny how you find ways to show me that you're still around in some weird, distant way. It probably doesn't mean anything, but it's interesting, and it makes me wonder a bit. Oh well.
Today's already gone not how I wanted it to. I was very specific about what I wanted to do today, but apparently when I talked about it my family covered their ears. Birthdays are a fucking pain. I should be the only one celebrating today. The only thing I want is a "happy birthday". No dinner, no cake, nothing. I want a day for myself. Yes, I am selfish.
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[03 Jan 2008|10:21am] |
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So, tomorrow is my birthday, and I'm doing exactly what I want.
See you soon.
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I miss my home.
Like, my HOME home.
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